Why am I so blah???

Yesterday, I was very excited to get to church. I always enjoy my time at VCC, and was very much looking forward to another inspiring Sunday. Bob and I arrived with just minutes to spare. We hurried the kiddos into their respective classrooms, and made it into the worship service with 1:30 to spare! All was well. Sunday had officially begun!

We sang along and praised God with the worship team, and as I sang I prepared to hear about another of Jesus' amazing miracles. (We began a new 7 week series last week). After worship, they took the offering, and announced that Pastor Kevin was not going to be giving the message this week. For a moment, I thought we might get to hear another amazing message from Assoc. Pastor John Stickl. Nope. There was a guest speaker from a Church in India there to give the message today. Now, I know I shouldn't be...and it's probably wrong on 1000 different levels, but this is my blog. For my thoughts. And I'll say it.... I was DISAPPOINTED. Sure, his message was good, but it's not what I was hoping for. What I had been looking forward to ALL WEEK.

To top it off, yesterday was the last of our CORE classes with Eric Hill. I have enjoyed that time so much every week. I have learned so much, and he inspires me to learn so much more. But now it's over, and that, too, is disappointing.

I'm not sure what's going on these past 10 days or so. Bob and I started a nightly reading together last Sunday that was supposed to run 40 days. We did 3, and haven't done one since. Bob missed bible study last week. I haven't picked up my book in almost 2 weeks.

I guess I need a swift kick in the you know what to get jump started. Today, our nanny and I are back on the diet. I lost 20 pounds in January, and I've gained 10 of it back. Talk about backsliding... UGH!

Today, I'm going to pray to be inspired. I'm going to pray that God will give me the desire, the strength, and the discipline to stay focused on my journey. I don't want to go back to where I was...it was not a happy place.