Bad News Day

Just when things are starting to look up.

Today, I found out my Grandpa has prostate cancer. We don't know too much yet, but we know it's there. He has an appointment with the Oncologist tomorrow. He had a biopsy done yesterday, and was postponed for quite some time because his blood pressure shot up into the mid 200's. Not good. He was very nervous....as expected. He is also the only reason Grandma is still around. She had a stroke about 5 years ago, and has had an amazing recovery thanks to him. However...she is weak and doesn't take stress well, and just the thought of Grandpa having cancer, will probably kill her.

My Grandma is well into her 80's, and Grandpa turns 79 in July. Now, I know that they have lived a long life, and that it's natural progression at their age to start to have health issues...but it still sucks. My dad is 73 this year...(he was 42 when I was born), and my mom will be 60 in November, but has MS, and most likely won't see her 60th birthday. Dad's health is deteriorating just from how much he's had to take care of Mom lately...and his health, too, is starting to fade. I came to the realization earlier this year that I most likely will not have any parents or grandparents left by the time I'm 40. That's young! Too young! Now keep in mind that I'm only 30...so that's assuming God allows one of them to hang on for TEN MORE YEARS.

What saddens me is that my girls aren't going to experience "grandparents" the way I did. They aren't going to have "weekend's at Mimi's" to share with us and all their friends. The worst part is that they probably won't remember them at all, except for stories we tell and pictures we show them, and to me, that is sad. I lost my Granny at 15, and I thought that was way too soon. The difference? I know I'm going to see her again. She was a child of God, and I know that she was a believer. Grandma and Grandpa aren't Christians. I have my doubts about Mom. Dad...he'll be there, but I don't know if I'll ever see these people again once they're gone, and that causes me great sadness.

If you pray, please pray for my family in the upcoming months as we battle cancer, MS, old age, and everything in between. Pray that we can make some family memories that I can tell my girls about in a few years when they will remember them. Pray that there will be opportunities to get pictures that can be passed down through generations. Pray, most of all, for God to bless me with strength, knowledge and understanding so that I might, through Him, be able to share his Word with them before it is too late.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6