I went to see mom this morning, and spent 2 hours sitting by her bedside. She was completely out, and was unable to respond to me, at all. It was horrible not being able to communicate with her, and watching her frequently wince in pain.
I went a saw a movie with Addyson, her friend and her friend's mom. It was nice just getting out with the girls and getting my mind off of everything for a couple of hours.
After the movie, I headed back up to see if mom was feeling any better. Apparently, part of what knocked her out was the anti-nausea meds they gave her (the new morphine made her nauseous). She was more alert this afternoon, and was able to talk to me off and on for about an hour. She ate a couple of bites of food for us, but she is not well. She hasn't had more than 5 bites of food and few sips of water since yesterday morning. Her body is getting weaker and weaker with each passing hour. Today, she can't even ring the bell to alert the nurses that she is in need of something.
I don't know how much longer we have with her. The doctor is planning to try to get her back home Wednesday or Thursday, depending on how she is doing, and we will go from there. I definitely think that she will be more comfortable at home, and right now, I think her comfort is about all we should be focusing on.
Aspynne had another great day....day 2 on full dosage, and no sign of any side effects. Tomorrow is back to the grind, which means it will be that much harder for me to juggle everything going on in my life. I need to find a way to go see my mom tomorrow...let's hope I can find a few spare minutes for her.
For now, I'm spent. This is all so mentally exhausting. I am so ready to be freed of all of this stress in my life.
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