Where to start...

Though I have been a Christian for many years, I have not exactly been walking the path that I should have for quite some time. I have been very stressed and frustrated over the past few years, and realized there was something missing in my life. In November of 2009, my husband and I started attending church at Valley Creek in Flower Mound, TX, and I can now say I have absolutely found what was missing.

Over the past few months, Bob (my husband) and I have gotten more involved in pursuing our relationship with God. We have started attending classes at church, and by the grace of God, Bob was saved last week. I can't begin to express how amazing it is to know that we will be together for all of eternity! Bob's journey over the past few months has reminded me of just how real God is, and how powerful he can be when he is working in your life. That force is what I've been missing.

Over the past few weeks we have heard sermons on worry...something I do a lot of. About money, the kids, the job, you name it. While it is VERY difficult for me (I'm a worrier), I am realizing that worrying about it only causes me more stress, and that the only way I am going to get true resolve of these situations is to turn them over to God. I am not my provider. He is.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33

And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

I am finding every day that I feel better when I wake up in the morning. I have a new love for life, and have a great hunger for more knowledge of Him. I feel at peace when I'm at Valley Creek...it is truly a happy time, a time when I have absolutely no worries, and I like that.

I have always heard that Christians experience "convictions," things that the Holy Spirit speaks to them and instructs them to do. Earlier this week, I was convicted to delete all of the inappropriate music from my iTunes. I dismissed the thought, but found it return to my head day after day. Yesterday, I deleted all of that music...and it felt good.

I have questioned recently whether or not I was ever REALLY saved. I was young, didn't REALLY understand, and certainly haven't walked the path of a Christian since that day. So...just to make sure...I've prayed that prayer again. I've asked for forgiveness, and it's been granted. In that same line of thought, I'm going to be baptized again. I am starting over.

I still slip...I used his name in vain just yesterday. But He will forgive me once again, because that is what he does, and He is good.

I am turning everything about my life over to God. I seek peace, happiness and security.

I'll let you know how it goes.